Safe sex huh! i had a notion i knew everything there was to know
always carry a contraceptive and ne’er ever get pregnant
but i guess what i needed more was a mental dam than a dental dam ,
Be! because i just cant stop thinking about you.
People like to talk about ways to avoid STI’s of the physical kind
But no one likes to speak concerning the STI’s that may destroy your mind
The once that can have you tossing and turning at 3AM ,
raking your brain and constantly wondering
WAS I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM ?
was this just suppose to be a one time thing or ,
wait!! my favorite one, How could i be so dull-witted,
enough to let him in?
My sister forever told me that my body was a temple
so ne’er let a man in that doesn’t take the proper time to worship you ,
because you’re a deity (GODDESS) that’s an actually price sacrificing for.
i only wish i! i had taken time to listen to her more often .
But instead i rejected the advice and chose to listen to you ,
and that would’ve been okay if it weren’t for the fact that your love towards me was untrue.
Because you liked someone else when you aforementioned that you liked me too.
Then deception turned into a matter of perception
and everything started to feel like fifty questions,
except at the end of the day i was still left postulating,
and this asshole kept testing my patience.
But my mama said patience is a virtue,
and you said “baby i promise i will never want to hurt you” but you did REGARDLESS .
you screwed me over and left my brain impregnated
with the best bastard babies called memories
it was all merrymaking and games when i let you up in me
but now you wont even take joint custody.
it took all but two text to get you through my door
but hey! let me text you about some child support.
Just an honest why ?
Because i would have never let myself be reduced to some 2am whore,
creeping out of windows and sneaking through the back doors.
nor let myself be reduced to some side chick,
just another side dish at the table,
for you appetite while you wait for the main entrée,
to just being your other bitch.
i am a PERSON.
i have the rights to protect my feeling and emotions
just having a punani and two tits should not make me any less deserving of your time.
or someone to be disrespected
so, if your gonna choose to be with her over me
well, i guess you have to do what is best then.
i guess i just wish that we had taken the time and stopped ourselves from feeling so much for nothing
we could have taken time to use both mental, and physical, protection and had a conversation
about what this all really symbolized before we had sex.